Sometimes I find that I'm disappointed in myself.
For instance, I wanted to get a lot of things done for my business today, but after hours of working and not having done anything to care for myself I just felt like I was in a rut.
I knew what I had to do. I needed to go for a walk.
It's in the 20s, however, I had not connected with nature yet today.
I knew that was the medicine I needed.
I was disappointed that I didn't get as many things done as I had hoped and that I had to stop to take care of myself.
As I put my jacket on, got my dog ready and I bundled up in my hat, scarf and mittens I had the thought, “Man, it's too bad. I feel disappointed. It's just disappointing that I have to do these things to function in a balanced manner.”
Of course, I know. This is not a healthy mindset.
It is, instead that bully in my head. It is me being unkind to myself.
I realize that, once again—the bully, maybe the ego, is comparing me to what I used to be able to do.
Maybe I could do all those things because it was a different season of life, I had more energy, was younger.
More likely, however, it was because I was neglecting myself in the process and telling myself, “You’re fine.”
What have you been sacrificing to be all things to all people and “do” all the things?
What are you not caring for or tending to in yourself right now?
There is always a sacrifice when we don’t live in alignment with our authentic selves—when we ignore our intuition, our bodies.
We have experienced all too often the sacrifices we make of ourselves when we are overachieving and driven to make everything in our life and in the lives of our family “perfect”.
We are always the ones that are sacrificing.
Especially as parents.
We are giving something up that would benefit our heart, our soul so that we can achieve more, look better, do one extra thing for somebody else.
As a result, we take from ourselves.
We are living out of alignment.
We are stealing our own joy in order to create something that won’t last.
We steal our own peace and sense of balance to do something that really doesn't matter.
We take from ourselves in hopes that we or our children or family might appear a certain way when, in reality, it really doesn't matter. In the end, most of these things we steal from ourselves to “do” or “create” just don’t matter.
Friends, be careful when you feel disappointed in yourself not to run with the thought.
Remember that oftentimes, you're in comparison energy which is of a low vibration. Most of the time, it's a very simple thing that you need to do to take care of yourself, to get yourself back into balance.
The interesting thing is that often, when you’re in the mindset of comparison, you are actually comparing yourself to a time in your life when you were out of balance.
So you were heavy on the doing and everything looked perfect, but how was your heart?
How was your relationship with your child, your partner…really?
Did you even remember you had a body during those periods?
Let’s listen to our hearts, our bodies speaking to us. Let’s set that example for the next generation. These children need to see some adults living in this way.
Our children deserve to have some examples of what honoring their intuition, bodies, hearts and their authentic truth actually looks like.
When we live life and make our choices in this way, we will experience such overflow of creativity, authenticity, power and joy.
Isn’t that what we want to model and share with our children, brothers, sisters and the planet?